just because

I am supposed to be studying for my art history midterm right now but I am just feeling a little overhwhelmed by it right now so I figured that probably the best thing to do is to waste time ranting about my lack of motivation. Woot! I don't know why something like this really even matters at all. The stress I feel right now is not something that will soon be forgotten, nor do I even want it to remain as a memory.....and most people could care less what the heck I am talking about right now so why I am writing about it on my blog...yeah I don't really have a reason. But nonetheless I feel the need to write it...hmmm. Let's see what I can talk about. I planned to wake up at 8:30 well I actually got up at 9:30 Let's face it I am a sleep whore. I can't go without my 8 hours. So since I went to bed at 1:30 it only made sense. It was a good decision because now I feel pretty much wide awake. My brain is kinda tired though from studying. I am seriously mentally exhausted and it is only Tuesday and boy do I have sooo much more to do still. Like tonight I have online math hw that I have no clue how to do and the math lab will be closed. Oh and I have a New Testament quiz that I need to take sometime today which I have yet to study for. Can you tell things are piling up?? Well at least in a few hours this will be over with and my calc midterm is finally done so that makes me feel a little better about life. I have this problem (as evidenced by this blog post) where I get so stressed out I become apathetic. I also have some clouded judgement or something...like I can't really understand the consequences of this apathy until the next day and then I think well that was stupid. Life is a learning experience though. And I would like to say I have become a little better at not procrastinating....yet here we are. Well anyway after I woke up I washed my face and then I started to the studying. It is going ok. I feel like I will do a decent job on the essays….let’s hope. Well I just ate breakfast a little bit ago too. I had me some chocolate milk and some toast with butter and jam. Oh so yummy. I am listening to Dreaming With a Broken Heart. Amazing song. I am proud to say though that this is no longer my theme song. And now I am listening to Lovely by Sara Haze. I think this will become my new theme song. Last night my FHE group made a music video to Ridin’ Solo. It was really fun. We dressed all gangster and yeah that’s really all you need to know. Now it is 12 and I promised myself I would stop this when the time came. The end.