Bootsie Boots

So I got back from my vacation and Brynn had bought some really cute boots for really cheap. I decided that I wanted some too. I've wanted brown ones for a while but they're always just so expensive! Well I still want some light brown flat ones but I found these awesome dark brown heels for only 30 bucks. Perfect for church. I'm satisfied.

everybody's changing

Right now I am listening to Keane. Love them. Karen just gave me their CD. They are an any mood kind of band. My mood right now is weird. I feel weird. Maybe it's because I just ate Carl's Jr. Or maybe it's because I'm a girl....who ever knows. I have a calc test on Saturday and I am pretty sure I won't be able to get any points. I am really regretting not getting out of that class when I had the chance.

Sometimes I feel like crying so bad I know the tears are just building up inside of me...yet they won't come out. It's a problem I have this semester. So emotional on the inside but I can't show it. I've never had a problem with this before. I don't know what it is.

Today is one of those days though where I feel a lot like last semester and it's kinda a good feeling, in a really strange way, because last semester was not one I would ever repeat. The thing that sucks is that the person I want to talk to more than anyone right now is inaccessible. The other thing that sucks is that I just drank a Dr. Pepper so I can't even go sleep the mood off.

BFF

Today I was walking out to my car carrying my keys and I looked down and noticed something on my key chain that I haven't looked at in a while. My BFF mood ring. I was thinking just how much I miss the other 2 parts to this ring. I miss our moments that we got to spend together every day. I miss discussing my life with them, all of us together. I miss living with them. I miss their laughs, their insight, their jokes, the list goes on. This semester has been pretty amazing and when people ask me what's hard about it I always say calc first but my mind almost always instantly turns to these two girls. It's hard that it's not being shared with them.

I am so glad though that we can have this time apart that we can all grow as individuals. I realize how much I truly depended on them and if it weren't for them and their love and guidance I would not have made it through the year. I know now how to stand on my own because of their examples, but it hasn't been easy.

I was thinking about our last moment that we had as a trio and it breaks my heart. We all knew it would be a whole summer apart, little did we know that the circumstances would change and it would end up turning into a year and a half. But as I stood holding them in my arms that day we said goodbye I still felt peace. I knew that our friendship was one that would last.

That's the best thing about these girls. I don't have to see them every day or even talk to them every day to feel their love and to know they will be there for me.

Hay and Katers I sure miss you and I sure love ya. BFFs.