because typing is easier than writing

Several people have told me in the past month, "isn't being engaged so great?!" I always look at them trying to figure out if there was any hint of sarcasm in there. Get this-they are totally serious. I don't get it. Being engaged is terrible.

You have to say goodbye at the end of each day.

You still have roommates.

You have a twin bed next to a cinder-block wall for the 3rd year in a row, and it still makes you shiver at night.

You have to wait all day to see each other.

You have to brush your teeth all by yourself!

On a more emotional side of it all, the wedding makes you crazy.

Everything and everyone is annoying.

Something as simple as shoes can make you lose sleep.

You're irritable because of this even though you pound down the melatonin.

You can never focus.

There is always something on your mind, like what shade of whatever will match best.

Your lack of focus makes you a sub-par TA and a worse student.

Did I mention you no longer have a single Sunday to yourself because you will forever be in the bishop's office.??

Being engaged is great. So great.

I am blessed

It's probably annoying, to anyone who follows my blog, that I really only post when I go on a rant. These past couple of months have truly been life changing. It's probably stupid that I am just now realizing this, but marriage is a big freaking deal. I say that I have always known I would marry Rhett, and that I didn't have to think twice. This is a true fact. Rhett though, was always taking his time and it drove me crazy, because I just wanted him to KNOW! I am so grateful now that he took his time.

I've been engaged for a month now and it's so stressful preparing for the wedding and keeping up with school and being apart from Rhett during class or reviews or work. These are all stupid complaints, I do realize that. But today I was so grateful for my opportunity to wait to get married in the temple. To wait for eternity. To wait for what will be the happiest day of my life. I know I am constantly go go going and there is so little time to enjoy all the incredible blessings I have in my life.

The blessing that I am most grateful for recently is the chance to get married in the temple. Marriage in general really. In preparing for this next step in my life, I realize how huge of a deal it really is. I have seen marriages that are incredible, ones that I hope mine will be like. More recently though, I have seen marriages fall apart. As earth-shattering as this is to me and my loved ones, I know it'll be OK. I am just so grateful that I have the choice to make my marriage however I want. What a loving Father in Heaven we have, that he gives us the ability to choose.

I choose happiness. I always have and I know I always will. I am so grateful for a Heavenly Father who is aware of me. I am grateful that he has laid out a plan for me. I am grateful that he wants me to return to him. I am grateful that he loves everyone I love. I am grateful that he knows them just as well as I know he knows me. I am grateful for the chance to have an eternal marriage. How incredible it is that I can be literally sealed to the one person I love more than anyone.

I am so excited to finally go to the temple. I have been thinking about it so much lately, and it's crazy to me that things that have been mysteries my whole life will finally be revealed. I remember praying for my future husband as a little beehive. Praying for myself that I could deserve him. Now that I know him, I pray much harder. I am so blessed. I can't imagine why I deserve any of these blessings, but this day I just want anyone who is reading this to think of the beautiful marriages that surround you. The beautiful covenants that so many people share. I am grateful for the example of my parents. I am especially grateful for Rhett.

I am so proud to be a Latter-Day Saint. I am so happy that I know my Savior. I am so happy that I am worthy. I am so happy that I feel his love day by day, hour by hour. I am blessed. I am so blessed.

can you believe it?

Just a week ago I got engaged to the man of my dreams. It was the happiest day of my life and it has only gotten happier since. I love Rhett with my whole soul, and I cannot wait to spend every single day with him for the rest of eternity.

finals

So basically accepting the fact that I spent way too much time on my D&C final which was stupid because I have a 97 in the class.....ya I don't know. Which basically gives me one day to study for mineralogy, and one day to study for chem. I can kiss my good grades goodbye at this point. Tomorrow is chem and I am absolutely going to bomb it. I don't even have hardly any time to simply review. YAY! Whatever I guess, because on Saturday I am hitting the highway.

Finals week=a perpetual feeling of crapping yourself.

what i learned today

"But let patience have her perfect work, that ye may be perfect, and entire, wanting nothing."
-James 1:4

nights like this

i kinda wish that every night was a saturday night where the only thing you have to think about for the next day is sunday. and you get to be with your boyfriend for longer than an hour. ok ya that's really what i like best about saturday nights.

neon lights

my new obsession is this song-can't get enough of it!!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HAxIATT6Ij0

Neon Lights lyrics
Everyday theres a thousand things
that somehow pass us by
Go cut through the noise
So you can know what love sounds like
I'm comin' to your frequency
To 106 point me
So there's no
Distractions

Take a breath
Take it in
Love has no expiration date
My heart will always beat for you
At a constant rate
It will outlast everything
You think is set is stone
It goes on and on and on and on,
On and on and on and on...

Spastic like
Neon Lights
Can you feel my love?
Loud and clear
Pulls you near
Can you feel my love

We got all the memories
So much more we can see
Better than our first kiss
Snow falling at Christmas
Like sleeping in on Sunday
Laughter we never faked
Bob Marley in Summer
One love for each other

Oh it feels like...

Fireflies
Day and night
Can you feel my love?

Everyone is looking for a special connection
But its like your compass points
A million directions
Do you need me to buy you
A telescope so you can see
How good
This could be


Spastic like
Neon Lights
Can you feel my love?
Loud and clear
Pulls you near
Can you feel me love?

Oh!

We got all the memories
So much more we can see
Better than our first kiss
Snow falling at Christmas
Like sleeping in on Sunday
Laughter we never faked
Bob Marley in Summer
One love for each other

Oh it feels like...

Fireflies
Day and night
Can you feel my love?
(Can you feel it?)

And I'll wait for you
As long as it takes
Until I get through
And it hits you right in the face

Can you feel my lo-o-ove?
Can you feel my love?

We got all the memories
So much more we can see
Better than our first kiss
Snow falling at Christmas
Like sleeping in on Sunday
Laughter we never faked
Bob Marley in Summer
One love for each other

Oh it feels like...

(One love for each other...)

Spastic like
Neon Lights
Can you feel my love?

Fireflies
Day and night
Can you feel my love???